The end is almost in sight!!

Well, its been almost 5 months since I updated. In that time, Miss girly girl has turned 17, has her own car and thinks shes 18. She is finishing up her Junior year of High School and looking forward to being a Senior. Her dance recital is next Friday and Im sure she will wow us with her talents like she normally does.

Mr. Man turned 5 and is currently finishing up preschool and will start Kindergarten in the fall. =( Time flies.....I cant believe my BABY is going to be starting real school. He usually does something daily that makes me laugh, he is the future class of 2022 class clown.

We also celebrated our 18th anniversary 1/2 a world apart. Dont worry, he WILL be making up for that!!!!! Im thinking a night or two away, just the two of us once hes been back for a few weeks. The Afghanistan terrain will be NOTHING compared to how he will feel after that trip.

I am now starting to freak out......so little time to get everything done that needs to be done. Yardwork, cleaning the house from top to bottom, etc. so he comes home to a house where nothing needs to be done.......just enjoy being together as a family once again.

Looking back, this has been one long ass 9 months, yet its almost gone by fast. Back in September, I didnt think we would ever get to this point, yet here we are.....eagerly anticipating his return. I am also worried about what he will be like once hes home again. Will he have PTSD....and if so will he admit it to himself and seek help? Im worried that the lil man will have issues "taking" to daddy again. Im worried that Miss Girly Girl will think she is too independent to need her daddy. Hell, Im worried about what it will be like to live with him again. Its been so long I dont even remember what its like to live with him. Pretty sad that 9 months can wipe away over 17 years of my life and leave me feeling like Ive never lived with him. Im just hoping that all of my worries are unfounded and that once hes back here, things will be like he never left at all.

Until Next time.............

I cant live......if living is without you!!

So I made it through the first night of him being out of the country. I cant tell you how many times I called his cell, just to hear his voice. What I wouldnt do to just receive a text message from him. Oh, it hurts, my heart hurts. I miss him so very much. I feel so weak at times, like I wasnt cut out for this. I am a terrible Army wife, I cry.....cry til my head hurts. I dont feel strong enough to get through this. I long for the day I am decorating the house for his homecoming. My kids arent dealing so well with this either. Miss Girly girl, who is almost 17 has become extremely bitchy and has no patience with Mr. persistant who wants what he wants and NOW!! Speaking of Mr. persistant, he is having issues with missing daddy. Hes been having potty accidents since daddy left 2 weeks ago. He misses his daddy and wants him home. For some reason he has it in his head that today we go to the airport and get daddy. That coupled with my own issues missing my husband, is making me completely fall apart. I cant do this!! Oh and I found out that he wont be HOME with us until September now!! =*(

Oh....side note, yesterday the roof started leaking and the day before the pipes for the washer in the garage froze!!!!!!!!!!! Is it September yet?

Gearing Up!

Well, we have been busy here prepping the house for the deployment. Last weekend, we cleaned out 3 1/2 years worth of crap from the garage, had lots to throw out and little to repack into bins. This weekends project is to finish the cabinets & countertops in the kitchen, then the walls this coming week. Hopefully in 2 weeks, I will have a completed kitchen. This has been a project that has been slow going because of all the obstacles we hit. At first, we thought it was going to be a simple remodeling project. Then we found basically a whole wall that was water damaged, which had to wait for warm weather to tear the wall out and replace it. That is just one instance of the obstacles not to mention that with all the extra unexpected isues, money then became a major obstacle. I cant wait for it to be finished.

We are on our last 6 weeks with the husband home and I know these next 6 weeks are going to fly by and when we are in the homestretch with only 6 weeks left till hes home, those 6 weeks will take forever to get through. Right now, we are concentrating on getting the house done and spending as much quality time as a family.

Since hubby isnt deploying with his unit, I contacted the State Family Readiness Assistant to find out about the FRG. It turns out he was in the process of contacting the commander of the unit that hubby is going with and also asked if I would like to be a core member. I told him I would LOVE to. I need something to keep me busy and occupied while hes deployed.

Been Awhile.....UPDATE

Well, we got official word, he is leaving mid-September. But of course, anyone who has any clue about the military knows that can change in a New York minute. I am filled with emotions about this deployment. This will be the first Army deployment we are facing, we did several with the Navy. I would say I prefer him on a ship as opposed to ground forces. However, I have no choice in this. Im scared, scared as all hell. I dont want to raise my kids by myself for 11 months, I dont want to deal with holidays without him, the kids bdays without him, our 18th anniversary without him, Fathers day, Mothers Day, his bday, my bday all without him. =*( PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray he comes home safe to us next August. I wish I could just sleep until then. The first 4 months wont be bad as he will be training, but the months that hes in Afghanistan will be pure torture. Also please pray that we can deal with day to day life without him here. I worry about the small things, a leaky roof, leaky pipe, dead battery, flat tire. Yes, I am one of those helpless wives who depend way too much on their husband. Thats what 17 years of marriage does for you.

Nothing new to report....

Things are pretty much quiet here. Still no official word on when hubby will be leaving, just know its Mid September. I watched the news the other day and 8 members of the RI Air NG came home from a year long deployment. My eyes filled as I watched those families impatiently waiting for their loved one to arrive. How I was wishing it was me, with the deployment behind me and looking for that C-130 to come into view, knowing it was carrying my soldier home to us. We will get through this, Im more worried about my husband coming home safe. The thought of loosing him terrifies me. And Im not sure what it is, if its just my paranoia or a premonition but I see Army Officers coming to knock on my door. NEVER GOOD NEWS when that happens. Again, please keep him in your prayers for a safe return to us.

I started blogging and some news

I have entered the land of blogging. As most of you know, we are facing a deployment to Afghanistan in September. I am terrified, scared, weepy and confused. But along with all of that, I am also proud! Proud my husband wants to serve his country! Please keep us all in your thoughts and prayers that we make it through this, but most of all, that my husband and my childrens father comes home safe to us in August of 2009! Till next time............



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