Been Awhile.....UPDATE

Well, we got official word, he is leaving mid-September. But of course, anyone who has any clue about the military knows that can change in a New York minute. I am filled with emotions about this deployment. This will be the first Army deployment we are facing, we did several with the Navy. I would say I prefer him on a ship as opposed to ground forces. However, I have no choice in this. Im scared, scared as all hell. I dont want to raise my kids by myself for 11 months, I dont want to deal with holidays without him, the kids bdays without him, our 18th anniversary without him, Fathers day, Mothers Day, his bday, my bday all without him. =*( PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray he comes home safe to us next August. I wish I could just sleep until then. The first 4 months wont be bad as he will be training, but the months that hes in Afghanistan will be pure torture. Also please pray that we can deal with day to day life without him here. I worry about the small things, a leaky roof, leaky pipe, dead battery, flat tire. Yes, I am one of those helpless wives who depend way too much on their husband. Thats what 17 years of marriage does for you.